I can´t deny how sad I am to be back home. I should be happy because I missed my family, friends a lot and the sunny winter days. But it is not enough for me to forget what I lived in Italy, my brain can´t stop over-analyzing everything I have been through there. This feeling sucks and I feel like I don't belong here anymore, you know why? Because I left half of my heart with you. I know I care more about you than you care about me and that´s completely fine but I wish you could feel the same and trying to meet me again as soon as we both can. I know you, and you dont feel the same way, you are just focus in your career and life. And you know I will always support you, because I´m fighting for my goals too but It doesn´t mean I can´t manage some time to be with you again. I miss the time we spend together. I miss everything but I guess it doesn´t matter to you as it does to me. You were the best thing that happened to me last year, you changed everything I believed and you obviously know what I am talking about. I don´t know if you will read this but if you will...I just want you to know that wherever this road may take us, and how far it may be to finally get where we want to go, always know you are in my heart and in my heart is where you will always be.